The date of my previous post was January 26, 2009. As you can clearly see, I haven’t written anything for my blog in quite some time.
I wish I could blame my absence on writer’s block, which according to Wikipedia is a condition in which an author loses the ability to produce new work. But, in all honesty, the reason behind my absence has more to do with a lack of desire to produce a new post rather than with my inability to do so.
Please don’t interpret the above confession as an indication that I did not want to share my thoughts with you, for such was not the case. In fact, I have truly missed communicating with you through this blog. For the record, however, my lack of desire had to do with my need to better grasp and comprehend the changes that were taking place as far as my understanding of Scripture was concerned. As you might expect, it is rather difficult to want to write about spiritual things when your understanding of those things are in the process of changing; for what you think you believe today may change in a week as you continue to work your way through your studies.
Change, regardless of the area in which it is to take place, is not something that is easily accepted, even when the proposed change is for the better. This is especially true concerning things that pertain to our faith, our understanding of things related to God and Scripture.
The challenge facing me this year has been that of accepting a new understanding of Scripture; one born of a new understanding of grace. The problem I had with accepting this new understanding is that it was so different from the old understanding of Scripture that at times I found myself questioning my sanity. The “freedom” that I was beginning to experience as a result of my new understanding was so uncomfortable to me that I literally began to long for the old, more comfortable understanding even though I was beginning to see it as nothing more than a form of bondage. In many ways I began to understand “how” it could be that the Israelites longed for Egyptian bondage rather than continuing in the freedom provided by God. As weird as this may sound, freedom can be a scary thing to those who are not ready to experience it.
I would like to state that I am back and will be posting on a regular basis, but I fear making that promise as I am still learning to live in my new skin, so to speak. But, I now have the desire to be back and my plans are to spend more time sharing my thoughts through my blog.
I hope those who were reading haven’t given up on me and deleted the link to my site.
So, now that I have revealed my life for the last year, what have you been up to?
